Thursday, July 22, 2010

DIY redecorating - and LOVING it!

Couch is DONE! w00t! So... what started off as just putting a slip cover over the couch kind of turned into essentially re-upholstering it, lol. But it looks sweet, so I'm happy. I'm going to make a couple throw pillows to draw in some more of the color from the curtains we got and maybe add a throw on the back of the couch too..... the cats think that is their personal bed and it makes cleaning the fur off way easier. Pics are on the way, probably tomorrow.

Next projects: fix boyfriend's uniforms, partial re-arrange of living room, throw pillows, finish living room curtains, build headboard and siding for bed.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

What do I want?

  My boyfriend recently asked me what I wanted and what would make me happy. I over-reacted at this simple gesture, because I mistakenly thought that he was inferring that he believed I was not happy. After getting myself all worked up over nothing he explained that that wasn't what he meant, he just wants to make me happy. I in turn explained that I didn't need him to buy me things to to keep me happy, there will always be things I want, but not often things I need.

  There are many things I want; many of them contradictory. There are few things I need. I can be whimsical at times, but I don't tend to be impractical. I want to lose weight. I want an awesome DSLR. I want motivation to achieve whatever it is I choose to set my mind to. I want to be able to make up my mind to begin with. I want a whip. I want corsets. I want leather. I want shoes. I want to get married, but I'm secretly terrified of it. I want to be amazing; sometimes I think I am. I want to be successful. I want to have a job doing something I love and find fulfilling, but sometimes I don't want a job at all. I want to go back to school. I want to not be afraid of rejection. I want to be talented; I feel that I am, but I'm a jack of all trades and don't really shine at any one thing. I want to see my family. I want to have people in my life that I care about in some capacity. I want an electric piano. I want a bamboo tenor sax. I want dental insurance. I want to be fearless. I want to rid myself of chronic headaches. I want a photographic memory; or at least a good normal memory. I want nail polish that doesn't chip and hair that does what it's supposed to. I want a hammock. I want quiet time with the man that I love. And I want to be sappy sometimes and get away with it. I want to help my family. I want to fix the government and our country. I want birth control without side effects! I want net neutrality. I want to abolish the two-party political system. I want to always be able to add something, meaningful or otherwise, to this list.

  Most of all, I want to believe that all of this is possible, attainable and within my grasp. I don't want to wait to live my life until it's too late. I'm so happy with where I am currently in the world that I don't want to become complacent and forget that I still have more to do with myself.