Monday, June 29, 2009

Howdy Motherfuckers

Also, when I move to California I'm going to wear cowboy boots and skirts. No questions asked. End of story.

Anti-Steeler "Nation"

I swear if I move ALL the fucking way to California and people there STILL like the Pittsburgh Steelers I'm going to vomit on some skank's $1,000 stilettos.

Friday, June 26, 2009


I have been so tired lately. I have no idea why. I what to get up and do things and get out of the house, but I've been so tired. I've been sleeping in when I can, but I think work + going to the gym as much as possible + not having any caffeine is REALLY starting to take it's toll on me.



While I'm anxious to go it seems I have a lot of planning to do. Some things can't be done yet, but some I feel I might be behind on....

As of now it looks like Roger is going to be to take a flight directly from Artesia to Erie after his training. This is providing his request for leave to move is granted, but there isn't any real reason it shouldn't be. By my count he should be ending training on October 30th. They told him he can either pay for his own flight to leave, or wait 1 extra day and get a free flight. I'm not sure what days those are though, like if it will be that weekend, immediately following the end of class or not. I don't see why they would want to keep them there any longer, unless it has something to do with getting cheaper flights on a weekday (it is the gov't, we know they're cheap). If he goes with the free flight option not only is his flight free, but his leave time doesn't start ticking until the day after his flight/"travel day". So, technically he gets a free day and a free flight by taking that route. A+ in my book.

He should be getting about 10 days to move. If we know what day he is going to be coming back on we could technically have already gotten a trailer and have pretty much everything packed when he gets here. That mostly depends on necessity, whether or not he wants to stay and visit a bit and how long we are estimating our trip will take.

Mike needs to make sure that his truck is capable of making a drive to California. I know he mentioned a little bit of worry about that and having the vehicle that is towing all of our belongings break down during our move is simply not an acceptable possibility. Mike also has to finish paying off his truck and his fines and somehow have money left to help pay for the move and help me put a down payment on an apartment. :-/

Speaking of apartments, I need to have one secured at least 2 months in advance. Which means that I should already know where we're going to be living by the beginning of September. Eek gads. It's too early to start looking now, but I don't know what exactly I should do. :(

Roger's graduation is also in the beginning of September. He actually graduates before going through the Spanish portion of the academy, I guess they're considered completely separate things. People who have already demonstrated fluency in Spanish do not have the stay the additional 2 months. Not only did he want me to come down to see him, I want to go down to see him and he'd like me to come to his graduation. That puts me in New Mexico around Sept.2nd. Not sure how that is going to work yet. Once again, it's a little too early to look for tickets. Although I have learned that car rentals are ridiculous. I'm not sure how this is going to work at all.

As far as the actual move goes, once we find out about Mike's truck, I need to determine what size trailer we need versus what size trailer Mike's truck is able to hold. If neither of those things coincide, or if Mike's truck isn't going to be making the trip, then I will most likely have to start looking into how much it is to have some of those fancy moving guys come move the big stuff for us. I might also be able to have some things shipped, depending on which is cheaper. I expect neither shall be. But, then again, neither would hauling a u-haul + gas.

Oh. And I haven't even gotten to the best part yet. I have this idea in my head that I'm going to grad school. In fact, this idea is so tightly lodged in my head that I don't know what I will be doing with myself if this doesn't end up happening. I need to know whether or not I'm going, b/c if I am it would only make sense for me to get an apartment somewhere in between campus and Roger's station.

I haven't even started studying for my GRE yet. I haven't registered to take it. I haven't contacted the department for the school I plan to apply with. I made the first step today: I purchased a GRE study guide. The smallest, cheapest GRE study guide that is likely in existence. Mostly because I'm not sure whether or not I'll need it. I'm not a genius. But I'm not dumb. I know that studying has never really worked for me. If the knowledge isn't in my head then it's not going to be implanted in there by simple means, for the sake of one test. I'm going to do some practice tests and see what areas I may be lacking in. If there is anything terrible then I will concentrate on it. If not, I need to register to take the test. But first I have to find out how to get my fee waived, and it looks like I have to go through the financial aid office at Behrend for that. I'll have to contact them, b/c the information on the GRE website isn't very helpful. I just know that I don't have $150 to shell out for a computerized test. If that's not a scam I don't know what is. But when you have a monopoly you can charge whatever you fucking want.

So, GRE and Grad school application process really need to get underway. I've been wasting time worrying about money and maybe getting a second job, when what I probably should be doing is walling myself up in my room and scamming my ass off. I've look at UCSD's stats. My GPA alone certainly isn't going to get my in. I need something substantial to back me up, otherwise I don't stand a chance. I didn't initially realize how selective and prestigious that university is. I wasn't looking for selective. I really don't care. But to the best of my knowledge, it's the only school in the area with a program for my study area and therefore I'm stuck busting my ass. I certainly never busted my ass to get into college. And I can only recall some moments of working hard while being in college. For a lifetime slacker, I've sure got my work cut out for me.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


It's possible I may be a little OCD. I never noticed it myself, but it has been brought up on a few occasions and it is being drawn more to my attention lately. The problem is that I can never remember the compulsive things I do, even when they are brought to my attention. So I'm going to begin writing them down....or typing them out as it would be.

Compulsion #1: Tapping
This is something I've been doing since highschool, probably earlier. I tap on things. Mostly with my fingers/nails, but always in rhythm. This goes beyond the normal tapping-along-on-the-steering-wheel-in-the-car (though I'm quite skilled at that as well). If my hands are occupied for some reason I tap with my feet. In high school I did this so much during Chemistry class that I actually taught myself to tap different rhythms, simultaneously, with each foot. At work, I must tap on things as I walk past them; boxes, stands, counters, displays - whatever is within reach. I often even try to tap a rhythm on succesive items as I'm walking past them. If the turn signal in my car is on while I'm waiting at a light, I even have to tap a filler rhythm to work into the steady sound of the blinker. I almost never sit still without tapping on something, most often a desk. If I'm sitting at the computer it isn't as bad, b/c I' generally typing. However, if I have my hands on the keyboard, b/c I'm attempting to think of what I'm trying to write I will tap on the keys in rapid patterns. Though it isn't my intent, people often look when I'm doing this b/c it sounds as though I am typing at lightning speed.'s bad.

Compulsion #2: Shaving
This one isn't nearly as big, but I was talking to my mom about it today and she brought up how odd it was. I hate shaving my legs. It's just annoying and time-consuming. However, I have an even greater despise for feeling my legs when they are stubbly. If I have gone more than a few days without shaving, and my legs brush together in bed, I CANNOT sleep. I either must put on full length PJ pants or immediately get up and shave my legs. It drives me insane.

That's it for now, since those are the ones that were discussed today. I know there are many more. I'll attempt to document them as my come to my attention.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

With minimal objections to my sanity....

(or what the kitten has titled: ;p;p;p;p;p;p;p;p;p;p;p;p)

I have a kitten. grrr. meow. Ouch, mother fucker, why am I continuously being climbed?!

Ok, as you may or may not be aware, I am a complete sucker for animals. Not only am I the type who thinks they're adorable, I'm also the type how wants to take them in, and care for them, and the type who gets pissed when people are not treating their own animals properly.

I found an adorable kitten outside my gramma's house a few days ago. My gramma begins to freak out about calling the shelter and how somebody is dumping poor cats in her neighborhood, yatta, yatta, yatta. I love my gramma, and she's an amazingly caring woman, but she is greatly prone to anxiety, over-talking and repeating herself....repeatedly. I decide to just take it home. It was cute and, once again, I'm a sucker.

So now, the kitten is living in my room for the moment. I didn't want to throw it into the rest of the house b/c there are many other animals and it is still rather defensive. So now, not only is there a mini cat litter box in my room (gross!), but the other cats are all freaking. I made a secondary mistake of pitying the rest of the cats in the house. They don't get fed - properly or enough - and I don't fucking agree with this. Despite my wont to do it myself, I do not have the money tp keep it up. I've been feeding them for a week or so, but now every cat in the house thinks that it is my cat. Every time my door opens and I attempt to exit the room I have cat frantically running into my legs to get inside. I've gotten to the point where I put food in the livingroom, just to get them out of my room. I don't want them to be scared of me, but I have to keep throwing them out and I feel bad. Once again: SUCKER.

Oh, did I mention there is also a cat living on our porch? Which I am feeding. He's actually the reason I bought a bag of cat food to begin with. Now all the other cats are hogs (which I can't really blame them for going bonkers over food, when they barely get any) and I don't have food for the cats that primarily need it. The fact is that the cats here DO get fed....sometimes, I'm pretty sure. But the cat on the porch doesn't, nor does the kitten, unless I isolate her from the greedy cats.

It has gotten to the point where I really wish I hadn't started feeding them b/c they are driving me fucking insane. OMFG.I think I just have to stop. I will feed my cats, which including the new kitten there are 3 of, and my bunnies. Oh, and my lizards. And the hedgehog. Yeah..... I think I've got too much on my plate already. Grrr.

The kitten doesn't have a name yet. It probably should get one relatively soon, seeing as how it appears she will be staying. Any suggestions?

Saturday, June 20, 2009


I should probably write more; it would help.

Roger's gone. Well, he's in New Mexico at training now. I'm trying to keep myself busy, but that isn't working so great. I've managed to impose a false sense of urgency on myself by making myself clean and organize things every day since he's left. The problem with this is that it needs to be done, but it's not of the utmost importance, and I have begun to stress myself out by trying to keep myself busy in order to keep my mind off things. *sigh*

The good news is that I managed to replace the power supply on my computer (all by my lonesome) and now my computer is working again. Hopefully I can convince myself to sit back and watch a movie and just chill for a bit.

I had my interview at Career Concepts. I told them I wouldn't accept a job that paid less than $9.50/hr. I'm not making quite that much right now, but it has to be enough to get me to leave bby. Despite my despise for the place and [most of] the people, it pays decent; especially for the minimal amount of work I do most days and the frequent lack of supervision I have. I like being left alone. That's a hard thing to find in a work environment though. It's also one of the many reasons I loved working at Snap-Tite long ago: 2nd shift w/ 2 other ppl and no supervisors - I was in heaven. We didn't slack off. I'm not aiming to have a job I can get away with slacking off at, I'm aiming to have a job where ppl aren't trying to crawl up my ass bitching 24-fucking-7.

I may have an interview to work for the city. The chic from Career Concepts is supposed to be setting up an interview for me. It's basically and secretary job, but it only pays $8/hr. I almost don't even want to consider it, but then bby will go and do something else to piss me off. My tendency changes day-to-day. I don't want to work 8-5 shift M-F either. But it's hours, and hours means money. And we all know how much bullshit that is. Supposedly, if you start working at this place as a temp and they like you, you can hurry up and take the civil service exam (which I was gonna do anyway) and get hired for real. I don't know how much it pays then though. I kinda want to have my bby discount still when we move and need new shit.

Anywho. The biggest challenge in my life this week (other than fixing the comp) was figuring out a way I could run the air conditioner and my computer at the same time with blowing a circuit. It blew like 3 times in one day and I was pretty aggravated. I now have my computer on an extension cord to the outlet across the room. So far this has fixed the problem. Hopefully it can be a permanent solution.

I would like to add that my family is awesome. I don't usually get to spend much time with any of them because I was always busy, but I've been trying to a little more lately and now that Roger is away they've all been trying to keep me busy and give me something to do . It's helping a little.

I'm annoyed about the available friend-type options I have left for time-occupation, but I'll get into that later. I'm trying to decide if I should go to bed now and get up early to go to the gym before work. The 1 and only advantage of going to the gym in the morning: if you're already in that habit you are not effected by the shitty lack of hours on the weekend. I usually go to the gym at night, but they close at 10 on Fridays (so I can only go if I'm not working), 5 on Saturdays and 1 on Sundays. Seriously. What the fuck is that shit?

The car is up for sale. I need to get rid of it. I also need the money to get Roger's car inspected.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Updates mostly

I'm driving Roger to the airport in Pgh on the 12th now. We originally thought he would be flying out of Erie, but we couldn't get a ticket for any of those flights. Kyle is possibly going to tag along for the ride, mostly so that I don't have to drive home by myself.

I have a meeting with some chic at Career Concepts next week to see if they might be able to find me a position related to either of my majors. It may only be for the next few months, but it would look worse for me to graduate college with 2 bachelor's degrees and not even attempt to get into either field.

For now, I have a bunch of hours at BBY and things aren't too bad. The people there that hate me are now pretending to be nice to me. Whatever, it doesn't make a difference other than making work a little easier if I have to deal with them. No word yet on whether the 2 day training in Ohio is mandatory or not. Even if it's not, I might go anyway. Out of town trainings were always pretty chill in my old district, they would give out prizes and such, plus you get reimbursed for gas and paid for the whole time you're there and driving there. I wonder how it works though if you stay overnight..... I highly doubt I would get paid to sleep.

I should go get my oil changed. I have work in 2 hours and need to sell my car next week.